"old habits die young"

What does that even mean?!? If the habit dies young, shouldnt that mean its easy to change? Yet, in our language, it means it takes FOREVER to change a behavior. I strongly dislike this saying. I dislike when people use it as an excuse for a bad behavior. I understand things cannot change overnight, but if you are TRYING and STRIVING to become a better person and to change the behavior, then you probably don't use this term. If you are trying then I don't care how long it takes, and I know there will be SHORT fall backs, but when someone does the ENTIRE behavior again, I am left to question if they are even trying...are they?!? I dunno...I am not perfect either, and for that reason, I understand peoples faults and weaknesses but man, trying to understand them and make sense of them stinks! Oh, and for the record, I still STRONGLY dislike that stinkin saying!!!

I'm a big girl now!

Well, I officially live on my own! It is pretty lonely sometimes...I am used to having at least 4 other people around me. Nights are creepy and long, and I am gone in the mornings so days go by way to fast. Things I have realized that I hate about living on my own...
**Waiting on the repair man to come fix things (broken oven)
** People who freakn smoke and are slowly killing me (man below smokes INSIDE)
**No one to talk to
** Buying groceries is SOOOO expensive
** Bills
**Cooking all my own meals

Things I LOVE about living on my own..
**NO RULES!!!
** Go to bed and wake up as late as I want (well on the weekends anyway)
** My own personal sanctuary
**I can do whatever I want, whenever I want
**Cooking for just me!
**Peace and quiet

Living on my own is once again a new adjustment but I do really like it. I just wish my apartment didnt smell like an ash tray, and I wish the managers would get back to me or even answer their phones...both of those would be LOVELY but I really would just settle for ONE of them! A girl can dream right?!?

a little piece of heaven

Remember how I just mentioned that I bought a chair and ottoman for 60 bucks!? Well, here is the picture of it!

It looks REALLY REALLY red in this picture but it isnt that red in real life! Shaun HATED it at first because of its color, but I love it! It is the most comforable chair ever...actually its more like a couch but its a chair so I am gonna call it a couair! HA...anyway, Shaun soon realized just how comfortable it is and now he LOVES sitting in it and watching the game! So really, this chair is just a little piece of heaven in my living room! :) Best 60 bucks I ever did spend!

table...

So a couple months ago, I was driving to Roseville to go to a family dinner the night before my grandma's funeral. I had to go to the bathroom REALLY bad so we pulled off the highway and ended up at DI! After relieving my bladder, I was walking out and saw a table that looked pretty similar to the one above, only in worse condition because it was probably a good 10 years old, and it had 6 chairs instead of 4. The table and chairs were sold as a set for 60 bucks...and the cheap person inside me KNEW I could not pass up this deal! I needed a table for my apartment that I would be moving into and the thought of taking under this project with Shaun and making my table the way I want made me really excited! I ended up buying the table (and a red chair and ottoman for 60 bucks as well) and I started the table renovation project! After SEVERAL trips to Lowes, HOURS of sanding, and MOMENTS of wanting to give up, I am very very very happy and in love with my new table!!!I love waking up and walking outta my bedroom and seeing my table each day!!! The best part is they have one pretty similar to the way mine looks now and they are trying to sell it for 300 bucks...I will GLADLY take my 60 dollar table any day! Oh, and for the record, I added everything together from Lowes, and my total was $93.57...not so bad for a table that originally seated 6 (I threw away 2 of the chairs because they were in such HORRIBLE condition)! :)

shutterfly+me=LOVE!!!

My life has been one hectic nightmare lately! Trying to plan a wedding, moving, and trying to get everything ready and sent for Christmas is the worst combination ever!!! Lucky for me, I have an older sister who has always used shutterfly. I always thought I would make my own cards this year, but when I went to their website http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/christmas-photo-cards I fell in LOVE with their cards! I started clicking on almost every card and just could NOT decide which one I wanted!!! After a few hours of looking at their different cards, I got this GREAT idea to make a calendar! I mean, seriously check out how CUTE these are!!! http://www.shutterfly.com/calendars. I am seriously thinking about getting coffee mugs for all the ladies at work for their birthdays next year and shutterfly is going to be right there with me, side by side, to help me along the way! HAHA...even if they don't drink coffee, wouldn't you want these http://www.shutterfly.com/photo-gifts/photo-mugs?!? For my cards, I would REALLY like to use multiple cards. I cannot decide between the following ones...

http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/cards-stationery/naughty-or-nice-christmas-card-5x7-flat?sortType=1&storeNode=93496

http://www.shutterfly.com/cards-stationery/cards-stationery/keep-believing-christmas-card-5x7-flat?sortType=1&storeNode=93496

**I love shutterfly. I am so glad that I was able to remember all the times my sister has used them and decided it is time for me to use them! I am going to use my christmas card as an engagment announcement as well! Such a special meaning to me and I KNOW shutterfly won't let me down! Now for the best part...not only is there a sale going on with shutterfly, but they are also doing a promo for 50 free cards! You just have to go to their bloghttp://bit.ly/sfly2010 and fill out the information then wait for them to email you! It is soooo simple to do and in the end, you get to use their AMAZING cards!!! Thank you shutterfly!!!

Turkey Day

Simply put, holidays suck now. Half the reason they suck is because no one in my family gets along. Everyone is full of the fake it till you make it gene, and this TOTALLY comes out at holidays. I am not going to say that I don't fake it at times, because I do. I mean, really, is sitting around at the dinner table during a holiday the best time to start drama and calling people out?!? I dunno, maybe it is because really, when is everyone going to be together again? Anyway, the other reason they suck, is of course, because I am missing the one person who NEVER put up with the drama. I was finally home from college for a Thanksgiving and they are NOTHING how I remember them being. This year, I had to split the celebration amongest 2 families, mine and Shaun's. I was very uneasy with the idea of spending time away from my family during the holidays, especially this year, but I knew that I needed to compromise and be share to Shaun, after all, HE is my family. We joined my family for a movie, which was Tangled (Seriously I hated the movie...it was WAY too long and just really not my style) and after the movie, I went and visited with pops. I couldn't even stand to be at his grave because it was just too hard for me. I nicely put my flowers, said a little prayer/talked to him like I always do, and walked away before I totally lost it. When I walked back to the car, I couldn't even look at Shaun because I was going to fall to pieces. He is seriously, amazing for putting up with me. He is the BEST person to go to for comfort and he will actually listen and cry with me. I love him! After visiting dad, we headed to Shauns house and had a GREAT dinner! His family totally does the food differently than mine, but their turkey was so good! Shaun mentioned something like they wrap it with bacon or something...I dunno but dang it was good! I secretly wanted more but I didn't wanna look like the fat girl! ;) I took a nap upstairs after dinner while Shaun enjoyed his family time. It was his sister Jenny's birthday, so Shaun, Jenny, and I went to a club after dinner and after my nap! It was an...INTERESTING experience to say the least and VERY different than what I would EVER do with my family. The whole time, I tried to be a trooper, I kept a smile on my face, (At least I think I did) and I made it through, even though the whole time I just wanted to cry and be with my family...but not the family they are now, the family there were a year ago, because THOSE are the people I love and miss. Anyway, we TRIED to wait in line at Target, but A it was FREEZING and B drama happened so we just went back to his house. I gave out my assignments to some of my siblings to pick up the couple items I needed from black friday and I was happy they got them! All in all, looking back, I had a good Thanksgiving. It was hard to get through the day, it was hard not seeing dad, but I know it would have been a lot harder had I been sitting at the table looking at his empty chair. I don't know how I am going to get through Christmas this year...one minute at a time I suppose.

wake up...

I hate when Shaun falls alseep and I am wide awake...like now! Part of me wants to go over and jump on him and tell him to wake up. I mean, we do get an extra hour of sleep tonight. However, the other part says to let him sleep because he had a long week and needs rest...hmm...I wonder what I shall do...